For a long time I thought I was going to die on April 2, 2014. That whole day was a bit ominous for me last year, I even wrote a post called If I Die Today that is very hard for me to reread. If you haven’t read it, you should.
But I did reread it. You see, all day today I have felt off. Really, really off. I’m shaking, my stomach is upset, and I can’t seem to get warm. It took me a minute to realize what was happening – I was feeling everything I felt one year ago today. Some of you know that I am emotionally intuitive and that I have been really off the last few months with my intuition. What I am feeling today is exactly how I was feeling a year ago. It is not a good feeling. At all. I feel very unsettled, restless, like a bomb is about to be dropped on me. I hope this feeling passes soon.
Something else happened last year on this day. This new blog, KristiTrimmer.com was born and I retired my blog of five years, OrangeDragonflyBlog.com. I also retired my online persona, dragonflytweet. Instead of redirecting the site, I was given advice to start with a clean slate. There have been good and bad things with that decision, but for the most part I am glad I did it this way.
Here was the very 1st post on this new blog: I Want To Be A Writer When I Grow Up
I have been able to write more authentically on this site than I ever had before. Sure, I have shared myself and my thoughts with you in the past on the other blog. But this one, with my name on it, is truly me. I write about my life, what it means to be a solo female traveler, a lover of craft beer and wine, and a gardening nut. In one year, I have written and published 224 posts on this site and have 107 sitting in drafts just waiting for their time to shine.
In this last year I drove 8,000 miles from Phoenix to Anchorage. I road tripped down in the South through 8 states, flew to a handful more, and camped up and down the West Coast. In Alaska, I have road tripped through a little bit of it (it is a BIG state – twice the size of Texas!) and I have a lot more to see still. I might have rented an apartment in Anchorage, but this girl is still traveling!
I don’t know what it is about April 2nd. I hope this uneasiness gently goes away. I’m not a fan of it! I wonder if a great big bear hug would help? It is an odd feeling when you are experiencing an off day – like you can’t put your finger on what is wrong, you just feel it. Weird, I tell you.
Aside from all of that, I have to say Happy Blogiversary, KristiTrimmer.com! This last year has been an amazing on for this little blog. Thank you all for reading me and coming back to see the things I post, the vulnerabilities I experience, and this little journey called life that I love to share with you.