It has been a long, long week. It is now Day 14 of this 30-Day Detox. I thought things were supposed to get easier. When does that happen, exactly? I’m trying not to complain, looking for the positives, but that seems to be just beyond my grasp right now. I’m tired, I’m grumpy, overly emotional, and feel like I can’t please anyone (including myself) no matter what I do or how hard I try. This week I found out I have yet a new food allergy, or intolerance, (not sure which yet) to deal with. I’ve been pretty upset about it.
I saw this painted on the wall at CrossFit Retaliation – Never Give Up Hope. I kept looking at it and found myself saying to myself – Never Give Up Hope Even When You Really Want To.
Get this, I can’t eat ice cream anymore. Or have creamer in my coffee. I had a scoop of ice cream the other day and thought someone was ripping apart my body from the inside out. Painful, so incredibly painful. I’ve had this reaction before, but had usually found out the ice cream had soy in it. Not this time, no soy. It was clearly the dairy. I don’t react to butter or cheese (thankfully!), so I’m not sure what’s going on. This one was very new for me and I have to do more research and testing to find out for certain.
Then there’s sugar. I’m going to take a glucose tolerance test to see how my body processes sugar. From what we can tell, not very well.
WHAT ELSE IS EFFING WRONG WITH ME?!?!
Sorry, I have been having a pity party in my head the last couple days. I’m just SO tired of being sick from food. This has been another week of depression as I deal with all of this. There are some other health issues we are testing, but more on those later if the tests come back positive. My leg is still in constant pain, nothing new there. I had acupuncture done this week – the needles were stuck in my ears and my finger’s nail beds. Holy shit, that is not pleasant. At all. I had to go find my happy place while that madness was going on.
This saying was posted on the wall at CrossFit Retaliation… such a good reminder.
This past week I ventured out from the safety of cooking just at home. It started last Sunday when we participated in a Paleo Food Exchange. We each made 10 meals and met with a group of people from CrossFit and traded. I was so effing nervous to do this. I posted my Soy Allergy Alert: Common Foods That Contain Soy and hoped that they would understand how important this was to me. I then had dinner with Trevor and his family at the Cheesecake Factory in Indianapolis. Surprisingly, they do not have an allergen menu as most large chains do where they list out the seven most common allergens in each dish. Our waiter went above and beyond making sure my meal was soy free. He seriously put my mind at ease, I was so grateful for that.
I went and weighed in today and was so not excited to see that I had lost just one pound in a week. What were all those early mornings at CrossFit for? 234 pushups just yesterday? One pound? YOU HAVE TO BE KIDDING ME. I grabbed the measuring tape and grumpily went into the bathroom to take my measurements.
Drum Roll Please…
Two weeks down on this 30 Day Detox, Let’s See The Results!
Measurements This Week Measurements Last Week Total Inches Lost
Chest: -0.50 -0.25 -0.75
Waist: -1.0 -2.25 -3.25
Belly: -1.50 -2.50 -4.00
Hips: -0.50 -3.75 -4.25
Ass: 0 -0.50 -0.50
Thighs: 0 -0.50 -0.50
Calves: -0.25 -0.25 -0.50
Wrist: -2.75 0 -2.75
Forearm: -0.25 0 -0.25
Upperarm: -0.50 0 -0.50
Total: 7.25″ lost 10.0” lost 17.25” lost
Weight: 1 pound 5 pounds Total Loss: 6 pounds
It’s interesting to me to see that I’m consistently losing weight in my midsection. It is clearly the first indication of where I gain weight. But look at my wrist! I almost didn’t believe that measurement so I measured it again. Sure enough, I lost 2.75 inches. You can visually see that they are not swollen like they were. I had no idea they were swollen before because I had gotten SO used to being puffy everywhere.
The allergens are slowly but steadily leaving my body. I’ve been 14 days now on a very strict eating regimen: No soy, very little gluten, and no alcohol. Oh, one thing I want to clear up. I’ve been asked if I gave up alcohol because I had issues with it. Nope. I have a compromised liver because of having to work harder to rid my body of soy. When you then add alcohol to the mix, my liver works overtime and gets really tired. I decided to give it a 30 day break so I could baseline my body without allergens in it. Make sense?
One a side beer note… I won’t be able to have porters or stouts unless I confirm with the brewery the source of chocolate that they may have added to the beer. My favorite beer might be my favorite beer I can no longer drink. And no, I’m not happy about it.
I’ve slipped into a negative state of mind and I need to change my thought patterns. Here are a few things I am grateful for.
- A place to come to where I feel welcomed and where I can get the help I need in all aspects – physically, emotionally, and spiritually.
- For Trevor getting Internet at the house so I can work from home and look out at the beautiful Indiana countryside. I even saw a porcupine and Cardinals just this morning!
- Friends who reach out and check up on me. Friends who understand that my life isn’t all sunshine and unicorns.
- Chandler Bing. I love this dog. He makes me get up to stretch every hour and give him full body hugs. He snuggles with me at night and listens to me when I’m frustrated. He doesn’t judge, just puts his head down on my chest and nuzzles in.
- For a hot tub to soak my weary body at the end of day. It is very, very weird not to have a glass of wine in my hand while in the hot tub. Very weird.